The Melancholy of Wentz Gossi

As if life weren’t already spinning in a constanst downward motion, nothing happend today. Well, no, I shouldn’t say that because after all–Erin and Nick did break up today and I wanted that, right? I mean, hadn’t I been hoping for this day for almost two weeks? And it wasn’t even a tearful break up. Actually, it was more of a shrug of-ish sort of break up because technically Eri didn’t even break up with him–Kat did. So maybe it still counts?…No, he knew it was over in math when I last saw him so, it must be a offical shrug of-ish breakup. Yeah, plus, Eri took off her stupid[[it was not out of jealousy, I swear]] little heart thing.
Um…so anyway, I should be happy that the guy that I like [[do I really still like Nick now or was it just because Erin was with him?]]is single but, I have all these mixed emotions about the whole thing. I know that if for some wierd reason he actually asked me out that I’d say no. I mean, he’s just one guy that doesn’t know nearly as much as Eri does about me so, why would I do that to her because at one point in this realationship she did care some about him.

Moving on: why is Katilin so over protective with her bf Matt? I mean, I understand you kind of being watchful with him because Kat stole your old bf Anthony last year but geez–Channing isn’t gonna steal him, ‘kay? You were especially noticable today during lunch. Uhum, everyone saw you glaring at Chan whenever Matt was talking to her and quite frankly, it’s pissing everyone off. But whatever, that’s between yout three so, we’ll try and stay out of it…Haha, not.

Is Berg trying to drive me crazy?! Yeah, that’s right, we’re bringing up Berg the Perv. Gawd, that took a lot of energy to saywrite. But seriously, one of the signs that a guy shows at least some sort of affection to you is when he flips his hair. Now, granted, this has all been in the hallway and there have been other girls nearby but…I don’t know…I wish I had a class with him. Please get a schedule change and trade places with Josh, please!

I think I’m gonna make my shit cookies again tomorrow ’cause, everyone loved them. I won’t make the whole package though because then mom’ll notice and, I don’t need that. Dear Lord, that’s the last thing I need.

Why can’t I go to the fucking Paramore concert. What is wrong with my parents to the point where they don’t understand? Do they not see how much this band and, even going to this concert means? And don’t give me that one concert a year bullshit because Warped Tour doesn’t count as a actual concert. Next year, or even after the realease of ‘Crushx3′ [[which I'm not going to be able to see until after it premires because mum won't pick me up]], Paramore is going to blow up and soon the tickets for next years concert will be pricer because you won’t be able to fit that many fans in that small of a space. I didn’t get a chance to meet them at Warped Tour so, I don’t see why this is such a huge deal.

Ugh, I’m too stressed out…I think I’m gonna read some Mat/Jonny slash or…maybe some incest. I don’t know, I just need something really steamy to help me forget about all this shit in my life that’s stressing me out. Between going through this whole not being able to go to the Paramore concert, being overly stressed by my air sucking parents and NickxEri breaking up I just can’t handle it.

Thank you Kill Hannah, I love you guys [[it's not totally random, I'm listening to the Kill Hannah 'Until There's Nothing Left of Us' commentary]]. They’re talking about how many letters they get from people saying their music has saved thier life and, personally, every band that I listen to has in some way changed my life. But anyway, gotta stay on the topic at hand, I’m off to read some smut/incest.

xoxo, Gossi Wentz, xoxo